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Not A Good One

Honestly, I still have headache and not feeling well (emotionally). Pada mulanya everything was fine until something came along the way and I get too upset and end up doing stupid thing. Tak perlu cerita in details what really happen and who to blame on. Kesimpulannya, I get too angry, too upset, I extremely sad and then I throw away our wedding band from our hotel balcony into a pond. Plupp... A pair of wedding band worth thousands gone just like that.

This is not a fairytale sort of relationship. There are upside down moment and they will keep coming in our marriage. I just hope that I will be strong enough to face it and be more patient than I am now. Aku memang sangat sensitive and easily get upset after married. My husband didn't scold me or get angry at all. When he knew I throw away the rings, he just said "Semua nak buang" and went downstairs and cuba cari balik cincin tu. Aku dah campak masuk kolam macam mana nak jumpa.

Kalau in future husband aku ada affair, ada girlfriend or nak kahwin lain so tahu dah kenapa. I am not a good wife. Sedihnya, aku kena kumpul duit ganti cincin tu baliklah. 

i'm gonna miss you both so much :"(

21 comments:

  1. fadh dear,.. women are easily get touch, or i can say too emotional,.. yes there are always ups n down in marriage. i oso sometime gone thru dat phase. but in the end i keep thinking of Allah give us life for him to test us and how we survive as his 'hamba'. OH. Everytime i got 'emo' i throw it (i mean voice it out) to your trusted fren. Not that we want to 'buka pekung di dada' but it helps to ease down things..

    take care dear! xoxo

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  2. salam kakak.. honestly cincin tu cantek sangat.. ape pon terjadi tabah yer.. berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yang memikul..

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  3. kenapa marah smpai mcm tu sekali? cincin tu cantikkk.. tp benda dh jd kn? hrp2 pasni be rational ok... jgn ler ikut perasaan je

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  4. i donno how to voice out my feeling. selalu pendam and when i cannot handle anymore mmg buat bukan2, so unpredictable.

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  5. adoii..sayangnya cincin tue dear. bkn sbb mahal jer. tp sentimental value kan. wedding rings oke! bkn main2 punya.

    ape2 pon benda dah jadi. menyesal kemudian xde gune if benda dah xleh jumpe semule. hrp jd pengajaran pd fadh. lepas2 nie kalo marah sgt2 lagi, jgn campak2 sesuka hati. bahaya. istighfar byk2.

    time marah setan mmg suka mengapi.

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  6. Oh GOD..kalo i la..sayang cik oiii..tapi kan kalo i emo tak tentupasal ke..meroyan ke..sakit ati ke..i campak tempat yang i rasa i leh nampak..haha..:P sebab pastu i akan kutip balik pas ati sejuk n tak ingat benda yg i cakap tadi...
    2 b hnest..i oso type of unpredictable..penah sumday i was too emo n i pegang nfon husband then i campak smapi berderai..padahal i tak niat pun..antu mak limah merasuk kot..hehe

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  7. Aaaaa sayangnya. I pun pernah. Bila marah, nak baling handphone luar kereta, nak campak laptop luar balcony.

    Tapi bila fikir balik lepas ni tak mampu nak beli baru, tahankan aje. Lepaskan kat benda lain yang lebih tak bernilai seperti bantal atau dinding. Haha.

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  8. oh wow emotions n women..well, pasni kene kawal sket la ye sayang tu cincin ribu raban n penat hubby kumpul duit nk beli cincin tu..just put urself in his shoes b4 doing anything dat might hurt him or the rship..nak campak boleh..mcm ayu ckp tmpt yg blh nmpk n carik balik..huhu

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  9. i mmg pernah rasa nak campak bb/hp tp psl pikir nanti kena beli lain so tak jadi. wedding band tu mmg a sentimental value, tu yg sedih. tp psl i yg beli so xbape nak rasa guilty just sedih je. sedihnye :"(

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  10. wowowowowow....sy pernah baling hp ke dinding..hancur la jg tp stil blh guna..hohoho..
    sy pun sensitip jg ke semua pompuan mmg sensitip kot..takpelah,kumpul $,beli baru ok :) tp lain kali, kalau marah try baling bantal ke..ehehee

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  11. fad marah sangat kot masa tu kan. tapi kita pun selalu rasa nak marah sambil baling² barang. tapi sayang pula nak buang.

    cincin boleh di beli lagi. its ok. yang penting hati fad kena jaga dl.

    smile lah :)

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  12. fad...jgn sedy2 ye...
    insyaallah...May All Guiding You...
    amin!

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  13. dulu masa bertunang pernah marah tunang yg kini suami nurul gaduh campak luar tingkap masa tu saiful tgh drive. pastu saiful menangis nurul pun menangis. saiful berhentikan kereta tepi jalan cari2 tepi jalan tak jumpa. tup2 rupanya cincin tunang tu tercampak kat dlm kereta jugak. tak tahu lah pelik jugak ke terpelanting masuk dlm kereta semula. lepas tu serik dah nak campak cincin. skrg dah kawin kalau merajuk ke apa ke kurung diri dlm bilik je smpi marah redha then ok balik. hehe

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  14. ok, aku x nak advice ape2..coz aku pun x ske di advice.. :D.Xder la...xmo advice coz maybe tmbh hurt n stress up ur mind jewk..(coz i think i will more tensi..dulu kite same je,so maybe aku phm...but i don't know u now =( jrg jmpe kan..)

    tp as ur buddy 1 je .. i do agree with ur statement that relation ader up side down.. but i don't agree u buang2 ur rings..no no darl~~ :P

    Learn to get in touch with silence within yourself, and know that everything in this life has purpose. There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are blessings given to us to learn from.. love u ~

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  15. Nanti kalau fad rasa down lagi tengok muka Imaan ek.. :)

    Semua orang mesti dan akan buat silap cuma kita ni perempuan memang akan jadi emo bila ada yang tak kena berlaku..

    p/s : jangan kata fad,kid pun suka lempar barang cuma cincin tu takda depan mata sebab ada dalam box dia.kalau tidak gitu juga la gamaknya.. :P

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  16. mende dah jadi. cincin sudah tiada lagi. kalau hubby yg beli maybe agak berat nak campak tp psl aku yg beli and dah lame rase geram and terpk nak campak smpi waktu dan ketika tercampak juga akhirnya.

    not a wise action tp past is past. jadikan tauladan saje. :)

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  17. sabar Fad...there must be a reason behind it..baru je nk tny how's ur vacation..take a deep breath and think wisely-what is the best for ur family..

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  18. woowoo.. emm mcm pernah i buat.. tp baling hp.. pecah bkecai.. hilang rasa sakit hati.. tp kalo pk2 balik.. mmg sedih..benda nk jadi.. ape2 pun b strong kay..

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  19. sabar ye. benda baik.akan di balas baik. Allah has promised

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  20. kesiannya fad.menanggung emosi smpi sebegitu sekali...sabar byk2 yer fad.so vacation tu ari mcmana?anyway.byk2 tengok muka imaan k!aku pun kdg2 emosi..geraMM!!hukhuk!

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  21. OMG....nak buat macam mana...bende dah lepas...sy pun kadang2 geram sgt rasa nak baling barang,tp masih dapat tahan....

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